monster

i fear being alone

it always comes
again and again
no matter how much i want to believe that it's all over
that i'm perfectly fine

it all ends up being just
a lie

reality

cruelty

finality

this growing emptiness
this gnawing pain
i am afraid to give in
i am unwilling to give up

i don't know what else to do

no one knows

no one

none

i am
alone

fear

this blinding pain
raw

a skeleton of me
isn't it enough?
isn't it content?

how much more?
how long more..

before it all numbs
before it all fades

no one knows
no one
none

i am
alone