as of now
i sit here right now.. and i'm thinking about tomorrow.
thoughts about it has constantly been nagging me in a corner of my mind.. i've been trying not to think too much about it.. trying to focus on the things at hand. which, by the grace of God, has been a sucess i must say, since it has been a hectic week once again.
yet right now, as the time of day draws nearer.. i'm feeling more and more unsettled. nervous. i shudder to imagine the kind of weight it would be during that very point in time.
i've been avoiding this topic altogether on my blog.. it just didn't seem the right time to talk about it. but now. suddenly. i've decided that tomorrow may change a lot of things. and what i feel today, may not be taken as seriously as it should be.
i am in the running for a grand prize of ten thousand ringgit malaysia. the results are out tomorrow evening.
i am uncertain.
i question. so much. so frequently. i feel unworthy to receive such a blessing. i feel i don't deserve it. i didn't do well. it wasn't my best work. i took so many things for granted. how could it be, that i would still be given such honour?
the other side of me fights. that God is a good good God. the God of the 'yes' and 'Amen'. the God of the 'how much more?'. the God that will not withold abundance. and above all, the God that loves me unconditionally..
i thank all my friends who believe in me. boy, these people really believe. it puts me to shame. for i have little faith. not cause i think God cannot, but because i know i didn't put enough into it. so, in saying that, it declares that it is by God's grace and strength alone that i have come this far, may His name be glorified regardless the outcome.
thank you for all the prayers and the support. it means a lot to me. i have prayed. i have committed. not that i would win but that His will be done. i am thankful all the same. :)
God? i will choose to believe in You. not what the world has to give. nor what the world has to offer. all it's treasures and pleasures don't amount to anything next to what you have in store for me. the greatest thing, i already have.. Jesus loves me. loves me. for who i am. not for what i can achieve. *smilez*
lets see what tomorrow brings. me and my Jesus, we're ready. ;)
thoughts about it has constantly been nagging me in a corner of my mind.. i've been trying not to think too much about it.. trying to focus on the things at hand. which, by the grace of God, has been a sucess i must say, since it has been a hectic week once again.
yet right now, as the time of day draws nearer.. i'm feeling more and more unsettled. nervous. i shudder to imagine the kind of weight it would be during that very point in time.
i've been avoiding this topic altogether on my blog.. it just didn't seem the right time to talk about it. but now. suddenly. i've decided that tomorrow may change a lot of things. and what i feel today, may not be taken as seriously as it should be.
i am in the running for a grand prize of ten thousand ringgit malaysia. the results are out tomorrow evening.
i am uncertain.
i question. so much. so frequently. i feel unworthy to receive such a blessing. i feel i don't deserve it. i didn't do well. it wasn't my best work. i took so many things for granted. how could it be, that i would still be given such honour?
the other side of me fights. that God is a good good God. the God of the 'yes' and 'Amen'. the God of the 'how much more?'. the God that will not withold abundance. and above all, the God that loves me unconditionally..
i thank all my friends who believe in me. boy, these people really believe. it puts me to shame. for i have little faith. not cause i think God cannot, but because i know i didn't put enough into it. so, in saying that, it declares that it is by God's grace and strength alone that i have come this far, may His name be glorified regardless the outcome.
thank you for all the prayers and the support. it means a lot to me. i have prayed. i have committed. not that i would win but that His will be done. i am thankful all the same. :)
God? i will choose to believe in You. not what the world has to give. nor what the world has to offer. all it's treasures and pleasures don't amount to anything next to what you have in store for me. the greatest thing, i already have.. Jesus loves me. loves me. for who i am. not for what i can achieve. *smilez*
lets see what tomorrow brings. me and my Jesus, we're ready. ;)
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