the weekend before
i realise that i've come so far from what i used to be. i feel so out of touch with the world i used to know so well. the people, the life, the activities. i got my new beginning, but maybe wiping out so much of the past wasn't such a great idea after all. i still can redeem myself.. i still can.
it just goes to show that i still have so much to deal with. submerged. and i dont realise it until it happens. i am not like that. only then. and its all the time when its 'then'. God knows i'm fighting. fight so so hard. they wont understand. and neither do i. it's always the worse in me that surfaces. i despise myself.
when in doubt, pick up the phone and call.
you can never drink enough water for your dad to stop nagging. or have enough clean laundry for your mom to not worry. while we're at that, it goes for clean curtains, spotless tables, shiny toilet, fast connection, coffee in the cupboard, white wash car and the like as well.
i'm seriously considering venturing into breakdancing..
my need for personal space and internet connection is essential to preserve my mental and emotional stability.
i finished my final exam paper. it was insane. but heck it, i'm free. yes. thats right, auds is f.r.e.e. thats something i have not been since erm.. yea.. i cant even remember since when. nope. dont date me. haha. i'll date you if i want to. cause. i desperately need to chill with myself and Jesus. :)
i stepped into a cinema. lol. the last i watched was gubra i think. t'was a good day out. i had funnn.. sorry about the dinner thou. still hope you all enjoyed it nonetheless. :P
i read blogs i haven't read in almost a year. things are different now.
i'm afraid of whats to come. i've been living for the now for far too long. looking into the future is a freaky ordeal. i am shaken but ready to go where You want me to.
haha. this is getting longgg. maybe another time. it's a nice, cool and quiet night. i shall enjoy my connection and bedroom for a while more before i slip away. :)
p.s. always brush your teeth. :-"
it just goes to show that i still have so much to deal with. submerged. and i dont realise it until it happens. i am not like that. only then. and its all the time when its 'then'. God knows i'm fighting. fight so so hard. they wont understand. and neither do i. it's always the worse in me that surfaces. i despise myself.
when in doubt, pick up the phone and call.
you can never drink enough water for your dad to stop nagging. or have enough clean laundry for your mom to not worry. while we're at that, it goes for clean curtains, spotless tables, shiny toilet, fast connection, coffee in the cupboard, white wash car and the like as well.
i'm seriously considering venturing into breakdancing..
my need for personal space and internet connection is essential to preserve my mental and emotional stability.
i finished my final exam paper. it was insane. but heck it, i'm free. yes. thats right, auds is f.r.e.e. thats something i have not been since erm.. yea.. i cant even remember since when. nope. dont date me. haha. i'll date you if i want to. cause. i desperately need to chill with myself and Jesus. :)
i stepped into a cinema. lol. the last i watched was gubra i think. t'was a good day out. i had funnn.. sorry about the dinner thou. still hope you all enjoyed it nonetheless. :P
i read blogs i haven't read in almost a year. things are different now.
i'm afraid of whats to come. i've been living for the now for far too long. looking into the future is a freaky ordeal. i am shaken but ready to go where You want me to.
haha. this is getting longgg. maybe another time. it's a nice, cool and quiet night. i shall enjoy my connection and bedroom for a while more before i slip away. :)
p.s. always brush your teeth. :-"
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