bother

it's 4-ish in the morning

i'm up to my nose with work and still trying to stay sane

i cannot decide if i'm happy to see you or not. so i've decided not to think about it

there's not only one pissed person on this side of the world.

why don't one day we sit down and you tell me what the heck you want out of me. for the sake of this freakin non-existant friendship.

why do i even try

thats how relationships end. you're so tired at the end of the day, you just dont talk anymore. even when you have so much to say...

i am angry at you but more angry at me because i dont know why you are angry with me

i am girl and not girl. both.

i hate it when i hate the world.

i still miss you.

throw it down the drain. because of fear. because this is the way i am. whats the limit to my principles... whatever it is.. i'm nearing

i hate the way it pounds in my head. the way it all replays. is it just me? or do you face it too?

slacker

no i do not have an accountability. no i do not have a prayer partner. no i do not have a best friend. no i do not have a mentor. and yes, when i'm dry. i'm alone.

i dont feel christmas-sy at all

thanks sim

thanks jase

stop and consider. be a team player. i beg.

i wanna have a nice long chat.. no wait. maybe not. i'll complain too much.

tell me i'm not the only one.

jealousy is the colour green. and it tastes like vinegar.

come to think of it, you never did ever say anything encouraging to me. ever.

trivial.

bah.