tears and rain

It's been raining a lot. but i like the rain. i remember that it used to always rain when i was feeling upset.. it could have been pure coincidence but yet it brought so much comfort. because it always felt like tears were being shed for me, for i was unable to weep for myself..

how I wish I could surrender my soul
shed the clothes that become my skin;
see the liar that burns within my needing.

but yet, it's never easy to let go of what is held so dear. it's never easy to just turn around and walk away from everything that's so precious..

how i wish i'd chosen darkness from cold.
how i wish i had screamed out loud,
instead i've found no meaning.

well, there were times when i did scream. i screamed at God. and many a times, other screams echo.. they'd echo in my head. replaying and replaying..

i guess it's time i run far, far away; find comfort in pain,
all pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.

it's no point turning your back. there's comfort in pain. to feel is to be human. there's comfort in the truth and comfort in cold hard reality. all pleasure's the same. just like all sin's the same. an addict in recovery.

hides my true shape, like dorian gray.
i've heard what they say, but i'm not here for trouble.

i don't want trouble. i never wanted all this. i cannot recover the fumble. from You i cannot hide. neither do i want to.. anymore..

it's more than just words: it's just tears and rain.

it's just tears and rain

how i wish i could walk through the doors of my mind;
hold memory close at hand,
help me understand the years.

i could never close the door. i could never stop the plagues. but i'll hold the memories close at hand.. maybe someday i'll understand..

how i wish i could choose between heaven and hell.
how i wish i would save my soul.
i'm so cold from fear.

choices. decisions. i hated free will. yet that was Your will for it to be as such. i always take the wrong step. i don't want to be left behine.

i guess it's time i run far, far away; find comfort in pain,
all pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.

i'm facing the pain. i'm taking the hurt. You're wiping the tears away.

hides my true shape, like dorian gray.
i've heard what they say, but i'm not here for trouble.

no, i don't want anymore trouble

far, far away; find comfort in pain.
all pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.

far. how much further.. furher than this.

it's more than just words: it's just tears and rain.

tears and rain - james blunt