God encounter
At this moment, so much is going on in my mind. Cant seem to structure my sentences properly with what i want to say. i dont know how to start and how to make it flow and how to end this post. well, i'll try. :)
The past few days has been phenomenal. All i can say is that i'm refreshed, renewed and reignited. *bounce* my prayer now is that this will all be sealed in the name of Christ, that i will not fall back into the usual pace of life, getting all caught up with everything else other than what is most important, and being burn out and drained at the end of it all.
It's been a long while since i could praise. It's been a long while since i could worship. It's been a long while since i could reach Him. It's been a long while since i've been away. It's been a long while since i felt free.
And it's great to jump again, to scream with all my might again, to spell passion, to not care about what people around me will think, to laugh, to not fall asleep during preachings, to cry and cry and cry, to kneel at the altar, to feel His acceptance and His forgiveness, to live.
i'm home. i'm finally home.
my life is still a mess. but i have the strength to clean up now. and i know i can, with Him. i may still have doubts, or days when i feel empty and left out, but in all, i know that it's for me to grow , for me to trust, and for me to glorify Him at the end of it all.
we can't be too perfect. there's always got to be a weakness. i know my kryptonite. He does too. and that'll keep me watchful. that'll keep me on my toes. i pray for immunity. vaccinate me.
i'm humbled. even with my crippled self, God still chooses to use me as a channel of His awesome power. it's my first experience of praying for people and seeing them falling under the power of God. even when i felt all unworthy and stained, God accepted me. a broken vessel. i am truly humbled.
You are my God, my life, my all. and i'll live for You alone. i am yours. evermore. heaven and earth will shout Your praise. the wonder of Your name. i'll proclaim. evermore.
i can sing it and not feel hypocritical anymore. i can sing it and mean it. now. i can.
p.s. if you're thinking that its all the hype of the conference that i'm in a spiritual high, then pray for me. that the flame not go out. that will be my constant prayer too. :)
The past few days has been phenomenal. All i can say is that i'm refreshed, renewed and reignited. *bounce* my prayer now is that this will all be sealed in the name of Christ, that i will not fall back into the usual pace of life, getting all caught up with everything else other than what is most important, and being burn out and drained at the end of it all.
It's been a long while since i could praise. It's been a long while since i could worship. It's been a long while since i could reach Him. It's been a long while since i've been away. It's been a long while since i felt free.
And it's great to jump again, to scream with all my might again, to spell passion, to not care about what people around me will think, to laugh, to not fall asleep during preachings, to cry and cry and cry, to kneel at the altar, to feel His acceptance and His forgiveness, to live.
i'm home. i'm finally home.
my life is still a mess. but i have the strength to clean up now. and i know i can, with Him. i may still have doubts, or days when i feel empty and left out, but in all, i know that it's for me to grow , for me to trust, and for me to glorify Him at the end of it all.
we can't be too perfect. there's always got to be a weakness. i know my kryptonite. He does too. and that'll keep me watchful. that'll keep me on my toes. i pray for immunity. vaccinate me.
i'm humbled. even with my crippled self, God still chooses to use me as a channel of His awesome power. it's my first experience of praying for people and seeing them falling under the power of God. even when i felt all unworthy and stained, God accepted me. a broken vessel. i am truly humbled.
You are my God, my life, my all. and i'll live for You alone. i am yours. evermore. heaven and earth will shout Your praise. the wonder of Your name. i'll proclaim. evermore.
i can sing it and not feel hypocritical anymore. i can sing it and mean it. now. i can.
p.s. if you're thinking that its all the hype of the conference that i'm in a spiritual high, then pray for me. that the flame not go out. that will be my constant prayer too. :)
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