five fourty five am

dear you, am i a hypocrite too? i guess in some ways i am. but i still love you and i still care. you know, some how, i admire you. respect. i'm at this place again. but i can not let go. i can not give up. i can not turn back anymore. all my life is built on this. all my dreams, my every step, every breath.. i will cease to live. so.. i admire you.. *hugz*

and you.. i still have trouble matching what you say and what you do.. maybe you're confused too.. maybe you feel weird too.. thanks for the sms. we need to take time. how much? i don't know.. a few doors shut yet still here in silence.. i can't say i don't miss. the times, the talks, and you. you.

as for you.. i always cry. and then i always smile. thats how you make me feel too. thats how everything seems to make me feel. when fire and ice collide. crumbs.

you. i took time off to be with you and when i had to leave, you said it wasn't enough. not like you actually paid all that much attention to me anyway. thats just the way you are. as always. as usual. and i try. not hard enough. sigh.

for you. the friendship's breaking. i feel it. maybe i'm overly sensitive. or we're just both cracking under the pressure. whatever it is.. it's hurting. and i can not be myself anymore. i watch my words. and i am haunted by what i say or what i do that i think i shouldn't have. even now... stranger..

all of you whacky peepz.. we'll go moon caking, climbing, laughing, singing, posing, moon bathing, mozzie feeding, mamaking, swinging, see-saw-ing, teasing, snapping, candle-ing.. again some time huh? *winkz* oh, and we'll add drenching in too maybe? >:)

you.. course you were missed. hope your chimes let up.. *hugz*

and you~ pig head. slept through it all. sheesh. no fun.

lastly.. You... You heard. i know You did. so be it then. so be it. and let this love, be unchanging. let this be enough.