unstable

woke up this morning in a state of blurness.. was drifting in and out of sleep for a few hours.. i should have just woken up.

it took me a while to realise that it was a dream. and i was home in cyberia. not home in kk. just a dream. and i was on my bed alone. not with people around. not with you.

i checked my handphone.. what was i looking for? i stumbled to my pc.. what was i hoping for? silence would greet me. just like it does, every other day. everyone's busy. just like me.

upset. frustrated and alone. i reached for Daddy.. and then the yms came. as though everyone remembered at the same time.. as though it was all planned out.. but i was busy talking to Daddy.. sorry.. if it took a while for my reply.. and sorry, that it took a while to answer the phone.. i was busy crying on the floor... and also sorry, that i touched your hand.. i needed a little bit of strength.. and sorry sorry sorry.. that i wished you wouldnt leave.. i'm just unstable.

thats all.