not so alone
So, do you have a boyfriend yet?
That seems to be becoming a rather popular question asked not only by my friends but also by my parent's friends and my relatives. Am i really of that age already?
yet..
As if i so cham like that. *rolls eyes*
Relationships. BGR. Courtship. Dates. Boyfriend. Whatever. Is it really so important? Are they really so essential? Does it mean i'm 'un-happening' if i'm a single?
maybe
maybe not
So far, i'm enjoying my life. i have great friends. i have great plans, of which does not include getting involved in a relationship. (for now :P) There's still too much to do, so much more awaits then being tied down into a commitment with another person.
Honestly, it would be nice to have someone. Just the fact that there is a person there for you when you need him, a person you can call almost anytime, a person to spend time with when you're bored, a person to encourage you when you're down and the likes.
Yups, i have feelings too. i like guys too. It's not like i can turn off the attraction. But i have been in relationships before. and boy do i know that all i have stated above about the person being there 24/7 is not quite true. most of the time, it'll probably be that person thats the problem. :P
In saying all this, i don't mean that i intend to be a nun or claim celibacy, it's just that i'm at a point in my life right now whereby these things don't really matter so much. i have Jesus. i am fuifilled doing His work. i may feel lonely or desperate or envious at times, i do not deny my emotions, but when i take a step back, when i decide to look at the bigger picture, it all becomes so small, so faded.
i trust the God i love and i love the God i trust. i still believe He will not shortchange me. i still believe He is preparing a great man for me. i do not want to 'settle' for someone other than the best just because i want a relationship. i do not want to 'rob' my future spouse of what is rightfully his anymore. because, i'd want him to be kept for me too. :)
Think i'm a freak? well, at least i'm a joyous, contented, fuifilled, happy freak.
*grinz*
That seems to be becoming a rather popular question asked not only by my friends but also by my parent's friends and my relatives. Am i really of that age already?
yet..
As if i so cham like that. *rolls eyes*
Relationships. BGR. Courtship. Dates. Boyfriend. Whatever. Is it really so important? Are they really so essential? Does it mean i'm 'un-happening' if i'm a single?
maybe
maybe not
So far, i'm enjoying my life. i have great friends. i have great plans, of which does not include getting involved in a relationship. (for now :P) There's still too much to do, so much more awaits then being tied down into a commitment with another person.
Honestly, it would be nice to have someone. Just the fact that there is a person there for you when you need him, a person you can call almost anytime, a person to spend time with when you're bored, a person to encourage you when you're down and the likes.
Yups, i have feelings too. i like guys too. It's not like i can turn off the attraction. But i have been in relationships before. and boy do i know that all i have stated above about the person being there 24/7 is not quite true. most of the time, it'll probably be that person thats the problem. :P
In saying all this, i don't mean that i intend to be a nun or claim celibacy, it's just that i'm at a point in my life right now whereby these things don't really matter so much. i have Jesus. i am fuifilled doing His work. i may feel lonely or desperate or envious at times, i do not deny my emotions, but when i take a step back, when i decide to look at the bigger picture, it all becomes so small, so faded.
i trust the God i love and i love the God i trust. i still believe He will not shortchange me. i still believe He is preparing a great man for me. i do not want to 'settle' for someone other than the best just because i want a relationship. i do not want to 'rob' my future spouse of what is rightfully his anymore. because, i'd want him to be kept for me too. :)
Think i'm a freak? well, at least i'm a joyous, contented, fuifilled, happy freak.
*grinz*
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