indifferent or just different?

lately people have mentioned that i seem to be different. not so much of my usual self. it's as if something is troubling me. something is wrong..

is it?

maybe.
perhaphs.
possibly.

but what?

i was trying to find out too. i was rather confused about how 'weird' i was feeling. i brought my case to God and it felt as if Papa up there was patting me on the head and saying " rest dear, rest in me "

yes.
i know.

i HAVE been running around a lot. it's tiring. it's draining. it's upsetting at times. and it's only week three into the sem. and somehow... somehow.. i feel so torn down by petty stuff which normally won't get to me at all.

and talking about that... maybe it was since i started to 'care'.
to give more thought to the people around me
to melt the ice
to discard the pride
to get involved with campus life
to open up
to remove some bricks
to feel

and

because i feel.
because i care.
the darts seem more real now
the attacks come more aggresive

i don't like where this is going yet i can't jump off a high speed train without seriously injuring myself. this me is here to stay for a bit more. this me is here to care for a bit more. and this me is here to hurt for a bit more. just give me a lil time for now to recharge and i'll be back full force. :)

different?
or just indifferent?

i'm no longer indifferent i'm just different.