the mess

i look up and realise too late
i discover the mess i'm in
i look around and realise too soon
i discover the mess i made

i dont know how to go about it. i dislike being emo. but things just keep resurfacing every few days. it's not like i enjoy dwelling in all this but it's so difficult to throw it all away.

i try. God knows i really do try. and i guess i try too hard.

a series of heartbreaks. when will it end? when can i stop feeling?
i await that day.
i just want to be free.