zipped..

i found out that i don't know how to tell people if i think they're getting too close with me.. be it personally or physically..

it's really uncomfortable sometimes..

will being direct and straightforward make things a little akward in the future? yes.. i'm sure it will. not that i'm some kind of hands-off-me-no-touchy-or-i'll-kill-you-purity-princess, (you guys know i'm not).. but at times.. i just feel like shunning away..

it's ok to stand next to me.. but standing too close for too long.. erm..

it's ok to look over my shoulder at what i'm doing.. but putting arms around me against the tables 'pinning' me to a corner... erm..

it's ok to look at me.. but when it becomes staring.. erm..

problem is.. these are all friends. just normal friends.. it's not easy to say out loud.. 'stop looking at me'.. makes me seem like some perasan freak..

even if i am open about hugging people, i still have values and standards.. doesn't make me a slut or 'easy'.. i don't hug everybody and now i don't just hug anyone either. not anymore.

and the weird thing is.. i'm particular about who pats my head.. :P i don't know why..

ah well.. just some random stuff to take off my chest..

back to the books.. :)