companionship

talking about friends..

i have a lot to say about this.. and yet, strangely, i don't have anything to say about it.. or maybe, better put as, i don't want to say much about it.

"you can only offer as much support as you can recieve"

maybe.. but i think.. its more of..

you can only receive as much support as you allow yourself to, but you can give as much as you want to...

i know i don't open up. i know i'm a hard person to reach out to most of the time.. and i'm sorry to all those people whom have tried. i truely appreciate each and everyone of you..

yes, i do long for companionship. a lot of times. and yes, i do wish i was more open. sometimes. but building walls is my trade. i'm still learning how to build bridges.. but it's different you see.. walls do not need that much of a solid foundation.. but bridges do.. oh boy.. they do..

friends will always come and go. i've learnt the hard way. and i dont hold on so tightly to anyone anymore. does that make me any less human? maybe to some...... i seem so cold huh? freeze to death than. >:)

and yes.. we all know this.. the closest people to you will be the ones most likely to turn around and trip you.. i'm generalizing.. i know. but i've experienced it. sorry if i dont trust. it's not you. dont take how i work so personally. cause.. it's me. and it's the same to everyone.

special people in my life are few. very very few. if everyone is special, no one is. right? therefore, don't feel so sucked up if i turn my head away or refuse to answer questions. yeah? ;) alls cool. it always was, always is and always will be.. :D

have a great day people~

come back if you want to hear about my genting experience. heh.

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