spur of the moment

its moments like this when i really dont know if i should do what i feel like doing or should i just strap myself to my bed and lock all the doors and windows so that i'll stay safe and not do something that i might later regret.



yet, the silence and the pain thats consuming me seems to form a constant nagging in my heart. if God gave me wisdom, why do i feels so stupid? if God gives understanding, why dont i know what the heck is going on with my life now?!



i want to follow my heart.

but my brain is telling me what a fool i will be



God cares

i know Papa cares like no one else can..

will it hurt You if i did what i wanted to do?

i wish You'd tell me.

i wish that You'd tell me..

just tell me..