today i am overwhelmed again.
but this time, differently.. so so differently.


attended a prophetic conference in dumc.. it started on friday night and went on a full day from 9am till 4pm today.. the speaker was dr ron sawka from japan. and it was awesome. we really learned to prophesy!! hahaha.. imagine a situation whereby you are 'force' to prophesy for the person next to you. it's called activation.


faith. we all spoke by faith.. sometimes, it feels really stupid, and i really dont know if its me speaking or the Holy Spirit playing a joke. and somehow when disbelief kicks in, everything ceases, and you kinda get stuck in the middle of the prayer..


here are some of the prophecies, pictures, words given to me by my partners..

"encourage"
"i see a dove. the Holy Spirit will be your strenght"
"you feel the needs of the people around you, christian and non-christian alike.. and you really want to reach out to them"
"a half moon.. are you waiting for something?"
"i see you with your family"
"porridge"
"i see you sitting in front of a yellow table"


hmm.. so i guess i'll be eating porridge with my family on a yellow table? lol!


and the best of all is -->
"i dont think this is right but do you have a boyfriend? i sense that you will find your happiness soon. you will find your love.."


rotfl!! i was too shocked for words..


but really.. really.. the 1st prophecy i got today was the best..
i was really overwhelmed by my work yesterday. i just didnt know where to start. with 2 submissions and one quiz coming next week, i really didn feel like doing any work.. my laptop chose the best time to be a brat.. so did my ym.. and my softboard.. sheesh.. in short, everything got on my nerves a lil.. kinda..


and today..
"God loves you and He wants you to be strong and have the determination in what you study now. dont be depress even you've met obstacle. He will always there for you"


and that came from a sweet girl i met just this morning. how would she have known?


--------------------------------------------------------------


Pa.. i asked You, why dumc? why not acts? why not any other church? whats the reason you bring me here? i'm trying hard to fit in. the church is so big.. so many people i dont know. sometimes, it just doesn feel like home.. i miss the liveliness of the crowd. i miss the response.. the people here are silent.. they are proper.. i'm not used to it.. Pa.. why?


" thats exactly why you're there.."


huh?


"you want more life in the church, add to it. one person can make the difference. if you dare to do the ridiculous, I will do the impossible. ."


and so i jumped..
and so i shouted..
yes.. it was also cause i was quite tired till i was a bit cranky..
hahaha..
but later,
i jumped even more.. i shouted even more..
cause Papa.. You made my dream come true.
i have never. never. seen dumc so alive. so crazy before!! Papa made everyone dance!! Papa made everyone shout.. Papa made everyone praise!! and Papa.. Papa told me to look.. Papa told me to enjoy the moment.. and i believe Papa did it for me.


everyone should have been in dumc today. it was too awesome for words..
now that is what i call a celebration.


today i am overwhelmed again.
but this time differently.. so so differently