oh God


remove not these emotions that you placed within me
since the day i was created


remove not the capability to feel happiness, hope,
determination, patience, love and thanksgiving


remove not as well the capacity for me to feel compassion,
to feel that prick of my conscience to do good and justice


but most of all Lord,
remove not the ability to cry when i'm sad,
remove not the ability to feel sorrowful, confused and lost at times
when my emotions seem to tether
between reality and a self-conjured wall of security


remove not the yearning to be the person You want me to be,
remove not the urge to make a difference in this life and
just to exist to breath and eat,
remove not these feelings, Oh God of mine


Lord that i may never lose the gift You have placed within me that separates me from the animals and plants.
You have given me a soul that is capable
of feeling the good and also the bad,
a soul that rages against the unfairness of life,
a soul that weeps when it is afflicted,
a soul that learns day by day how to depend on You for renewal and restoration.


remove not the part of me that makes me human, Oh my Lord.
remove not my feelings despite the pain because without the pain,
i would not have learnt to reach for You for comfort and unfailing love.


remove not these feelings for they are the stepping stones for me to be honest and acknowledge the lousy moments in my life
and yet i still am able to be victorious because You are there.


remove them not, O Lord.
and that my soul knows very well why i said so.
remove not Your presence in my life.