life

i woke up this morning.. and i really didn't want to get out of bed.. if i could, i wanted to just sleep and sleep and keep sleeping..

so much is happening that i can't seem to catch up with whats going on. so much.. too much. am i losing sight? maybe a lil. i'm not sure. theres a lot to be done.. a lot to be achieved..

i want to dance .. i've almost forgotten how to..
i want to run .. don't think i can win medals no more..
i want to sing .. but it feels like i'm coming down with flu..
i want to shout .. public disturbance.. maybe i'll be sued.. :P
i want to shop .. liquid assets is a problem..
i want to cry .. but the tears don't come..
i want to feel .. emptiness..
i want to strive .. still trying.
i want to forget .. maybe someday i will
i want to make a difference .. i can
i want to give my best .. i will
i want to be stronger .. only through Christ
i want to be set apart .. He promised.
i want to laugh .. with all my heart
i want to smile .. without pain
i want to hope .. not giving up
i want to stand .. after every fall
i want to reach out .. its not about me..
i want to pray .. satan trembles at the sight of the weakest saint on her knees
i want to read my Bible .. its hasn't been enough
i want to make things right .. but its too late
i want to shine .. sticking out like a sore thumb
i want to stand in the gap .. am i?

i want to live. i have been wasting away.

dying to self.. before dying for Christ..